figure competition prep. my daily journal

{pill meal}

Weighed in today at 133.3 lbs. Back down from 135.6 (last Thursday).

Last night I had nightmare about teaching Group Power.

I arrived to class late and it was standing room only because the room was packed!

Most of the people in the class  only had half the equipment they needed because the class was so full there wasn’t enough for everyone. But they didn’t realize they were deficient because they were new. And I couldn’t help because there were too many of them and I was running late.

For some reason the stage I was on to teach the class was loaded with audio equipment (microphones, speakers, a stereo) but none of it worked correctly. I was screaming because my microphone wouldn’t work. 

The stage was so full of miscellaneous props and equipment that I had to teach from the front edge. 

I didn’t have any weight equipment either, because it was all gone by the time I made it to class. I ended up using a microphone stand as a bar to demonstrate chest presses.

The new people in class didn’t know what was going on and I couldn’t help because I couldn’t get my own crap together!

I couldn’t remember any of the choreography!

Other instructors were milling about on the stage. Some of them tried to help but in a patronizing way that made me look silly.

The music was screwed up. My CD was skipping and the volume wouldn’t stay constant.

Students tried to ask me questions but I was trying so hard to just get through it that I pretended I couldn’t hear them. I would just smile down at them, give them a thumbs up, then look in a different direction.

The music drowned them out.

I woke up sweating at about 3am. 

So relieved!